and now it's time to rest
I've been nesting some delicious art cards
12 little pieces of me
Each one holds such a big significance for me
in this past week that I announced my blog anniversary
I also announced my CTS, my emotional and physical struggle with that
and now you also know my love for slurpees and big plastic turquoise earrings
I have at times had both braces on my hands when creating. And others just medicine to calm the pain
I have gotten so emotional and i see it in each little piece
i love art
i need it
this feels like the time I had my one woman show at my art exhibition in college
I was SO nervous yet so confident at the same time
putting my art out there was the same as putting me on display. I was scared
BUT i was also more assured of myself than I had ever been. Because during the process of creating I found me
my thoughts my feelings my heartache ... me
and i am better. i am reaffirmed
and i am so very happy that i was able to put myself out there one more time
something i thought for sure was long gone way back in the college years
so thank you for watching me grow
and cheering on
encouraging and giving me strength to pour myself out on paper
i want you to know. I have a HARD time letting go of my art. mostly because i'm selfish
and also because i think my family and friends just tell me that they like my work so as not to hurt my feelings.
But you, you are my blog friends. I've never seen you. I don't know what you sound like, never heard the beauty in your laughter or seen you only through your work. thank you for sharing you. I think it means more to give to someone you don't know. And i'm ready for it.
goodnight my sweet muses
i have a big surprise tomorrow as i will unveil the remaining cards
post your heart out.
May 1st is around the corner and I'm so stinkin' excited.