definitely sums me up
wanna hear a crazy lady story... starring me?
I'm not kidding. Yesterday I went to the dentist after such a looooong time not going. I can't even remember how long ago it was! But anyhoo....I thougth i was ready to go back into the dentists office, i went in for a deep DEEP deep cleaning. Mr. Handsome had been to the same dentist previously so he explained briefly what they do. How it doesn't really hurt. They do a good job..... so on. I was ready.
so i thought.
now i'm a worrier by nature. i am a list maker. i live life a little stressed. but never have i ever been a super anxious person. i kind of like to think of myself as a person who can accept change and just go with it. But there have been times that i just freak out. The last time i was at a dentist i had all 4 of my wisdom teeth removed. i went in for prep for the surgery. chatting with the team that was going to do the surgery.
i thought i was fine.
then they asked if i was cold. i said no. i feel fine. which i did. but no. i was shaking. and i didn't even notice it. until they all looked at each other and at me. shaking.
they quickly jumped into action to put me to sleep with the ever so famous laughing gas.
told me a quick joke. counted to 5
i laughed so hard.
i went to sleep mid laugh.
when i came to after the surgery they were all still laughing at me.
they had never seen anyone go under so fast and so silly like me :) i never made it to 5
so i lived through that. fast forward to yesterday.
wonderful staff. two super sweet ladies who thoroughly explained the procedure. i nodded. sure no problem. turned my ipod on and they went right to work.
i felt myself tense up.
tense up moments later.
relax... thinking to myself.
MYSELF! you better get it together dangit!
i asked for a break.
they nicely obliged.
several large deep breathes later. relaxed. turn music back on. procedure continues.
well, 5 breaks later.... still not done. still not relaxed. still tense.
the final time i asked for a break it was obvious i was not able to take much more.... after 1 hour i was mentally done.
get me out of this chair i will hurt you kind of way.
i want my lollipop lady!
this time bathroom break. and they generously gave me a banana, and orange juice. like a little 5 year old.
what the heck is going on!?
i am no chicken.
right. afterall, i was completely numb for the whole thing and had not felt any pain! what was i worried about?!
i just wanted to turn myself off.
trying to find the switch was making me even more anxious.
needless to say, i am now. officially coming to the conclusion that yes, i might just be a little teeny tiny bit crazy.
and i just can't help it.
mr.handsome kindly reminded me while i was crying about the whole ordeal in his arms... that this happens to a lot of people. it's natural to be anxious. especially at the dentists office. and after not going for what seems like forever.
i would like to think that this is not a problem. that i can tough it out next week for my next appointment. but something inside is just not feeling it. so teeny tiny baby steps for me. pray before i go. make my visits shorter. and bring my own orange juice and banana :) hey, snacks are okay at my dentists office! yay for me! hahaaa
oh. they are never going to forget me at that dental office. what a way to go down in the books huh?
oh remember that girl deborah? the one that gets nervous like a scared Chihuahua? hahaaa!
before i left, the two dentist were joking saying next time they see me they would be ready with snacks :P
I'm so thankful that they made the best of me. even if it wasn't at my best.
that takes so much compassion.
i thanked them profusely and promised that i would behave next time.
and that, is a promise i hope to keep.
they said see ya later, and complimented me on my cute boots. hahaa. girls. totally love them.
you have any suggestions on what to do for a better visit next time? i'd love to hear them pretty please.
little miss crazy,