Friday, January 22, 2010
get me thinking.
this past year I've missed so much of myself.
I'm not sure why I've believed into a lie. and let it rule me. take away my joy. my passion. my heart.
a year is a lot to loose.
one little lie. an untruth founded on jealousy. ego. hurt.
I'm not sure why i came upon it's ugly path. that's altogether another story.
this year i resolve to take back truth. myself. my love. my passion. my confidence. my joy.
I will not give into fear. not coward again. and again and again.
I'm gonna fight.
gonna win this one for myself.
i'm worth that.
even if i end up loosing again.
I believe if i stand for truth then i am on the winning side.
no matter what it looks like to anyone else.
no matter what i end up losing i've already lost it all before.
the lie hits SO close to my heart.
it tells me i'm not good enough.
not creative enough.
not unique enough.
just not enough,
yet it takes and takes and takes my love for creating, photography, design.
i feel hurt. mad. outraged.
but being scared is killing me. my passion and my heart.
so i refuse to let the lie become my truth.
this year, i'm living... creating, designing and loving every little bit of it for me.
because i can.
not matter what someone says.
i am good enough.
every single day I'm getting up and believing and praying this for myself.
do not. do NOT let what one person says, diminish what EVERYONE who really truly loves every little bit of you says.
Because they believe in you.
so now it's time to believe in you too.
Mr. handsome is always there to listen to me and believe in me. Reminding me to let go. Let the lie die. And he always finds a way to cheer me up with a little joke. So here is yesterdays: What do you call a bear with no teeth?
a gummi bear.
(kick* snare* crash*)